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Fixed Foot

“Not all those who wander are lost.” –J. R. R. Tolkien.

I have friends who are currently wandering in the Champagne region of France, and unless they’ve been oversampling the local product, they are far from lost.

But wait…

The legend in Champagne is that the blind monk Dom Perignon exclaimed upon his first sip of the local sparkling product; “I am drinking stars!” Perhaps my friends are currently lost in the stars. I hope so.

They have wandered for as long as I’ve known them. Sometimes Janie and I have wandered with them. We’ve been to Chicago, Charleston, San Miguel de Allende, and Ocracoke (home of the murkiest clam chowder at which I’ve ever looked………looked, mind you). Over the years, as my “fixed foot” (thank you for that description David Dick) increasingly dominated my own wanderlust, the opposite seems to have taken hold of my roaming friends. They want to go. They want to see. They want street corn.

Street corn…

I understand champagne, Rodin, Montmartre…

I sorta understand buttes, Musso & Frank’s, the Cowboy Museum (how many times?)…

But this desire for street corn?

It plumb evades me.

But whatever geological, gastronomical, or artistic tugs they follow, they are never lost.

They may start each day with a vague notion of where exactly they’re going, but I’ve never known them to be lost. They wander in search of wonder.

I admire them.

I don’t wish to be them.

I travelled a goodly amount the last five years I worked for a living.

If you scramble the letters in the words; “business travel,” it spells “anathema.”

For me;

Alaska was cabbing to meet with delightful, hopeful, caring people working to improve neighborhoods full of homeless, compromised…hopeless people, who at each long night’s borning retreated to wilderness improvised camps to survive. Montana was landing at an airport where my fellow passengers knew the airport personnel by name…I didn’t…but the alcove in the hotel with three slot machines was cute. Tampa was a casino hotel. Boston was snowy, then snowy, then snowy once more. Washington was useless…three times. Biloxi was a hotel casino in the midst of concrete slabs whose houses had been leveled by the last hurricane de jour. Alighting on broken landing gear after dark in the midst of sirens and flashing lights in Chicago. Landing at a sub 10-degree 2am Bluegrass Field because the pilot wasn’t comfortable with his equipment and returned to Atlanta for a different plane.

No champagne…

No street corn even.

No wonder.

I remember an afternoon in 1972. I was landing at Bluegrass Field after a trip to Chicago for an audition for a summer acting job. It was stunning. Keeneland Racetrack was running. Everything was an impossible palette of shades of green. The white fences of Calumet Farm were stark and invigorating. I precisely remember thinking; “What the hell am I doing? THIS is where I want to be.”

I think that day I began to work towards a goal; to build a sustainable life Lexington.

Working towards that goal actually led me to forget that goal. It took that three years of “business travel” to remind me of what and where I wanted to be.

I’m here now.

My fixed foot is firmly and happily planted.

I have not left a search for wonder behind.

When I battle trumpet vine for sovereignty in our back yard, I revere the tenacity and enthusiasm of my foe. It is wondrous.

When a new, roaming frog in the family way leaves a slimy fertile contribution to our tiny lagoon. I find wonder, and start accumulating names for all the anticipated tadpoles.

When I sit on the back deck of my friends in Nonesuch and find myself sunami-ed in wonder by the Milky Way and the lightnin’ bugs.

When I drive on the Old Frankfort Road and admire the wonder of the paddocks speckled with field ornaments, aka thoroughbred horses.

Stone fences.

Gratz Park.

Breakfast at Josie’s.

Every morning I awake knowing I don’t have to pack, and drive to the airport, and funnel through security, and wrestle with the overhead rack, retrieve luggage, hail a shuttle or taxi, check in to a hotel…

Instead, get a cuppa coffee, do the Wordle, drift in to the living room and join Janie and Chloe the Wonder Dog on the couch to read the morning paper………completely wondrous.

Pedestrian glories?

You are welcome to think so.

I don’t.

I wouldn’t object to some of that champagne though.

Sewing the Sea to the Sky

It was a warm, salty, sunny day in the June of 1984, on the Outer Banks of North Carolina.

I lived then, and live now in Lexington, Kentucky, the largest US city with no major water element…or so I’ve been told. We have no ocean, no lake, no river. We do have the Town Branch of the Elkhorn Creek that runs through our downtown, or at least it formerly did. We (“we” being folks before my time) paved over the creek. Thus, it now runs under our downtown.

I’ve never seen it.

But I suspect many of us Lexingtonians, like divining rods, know it’s there, and I think we harbor a longing for it. A few years ago, an enterprising local artist ran an audio cable through a sidewalk that lies between a 20-story downtown bank building and its parking structure to a microphone near the underground waterway. Hidden speakers whispered the sounds of running water to the strollers on their way to make their mortgage payments. Not exactly ocean surf…more like trickles of desperation.

I love where I live, but I do long for big water…and a major league baseball team. It’s all that stands between Lexington and perfection in my book.

The first time I saw an ocean I was on a winery/vineyard business trip to California. One late afternoon, my colleagues and I drove our rental gondola of a car due west until our path ended on two tire tracks on the grass. We walked to the cliff overlooking the biggest water I’d ever seen.

A couple of days earlier, I had made my first hajj to City Lights Bookstore in San Francisco and now I was standing at the physical and logical end of Kerouac’s road. I was at the end of the western world, basking in that western light, gazing across to where nothing was visible, nothing was promised, nothing was assured, and nothing was finished. The possibilities of Diebenkorn’s and Seurat’s blank canvases were immediate and possible. What was on the other side? Stoppard advises; “I wouldn’t think about it if I were you, you’d only get depressed.” Tolkien is more hopeful, but just as final, and since I did not want to visit those Grey Havens while still in my 20’s, I reluctantly pulled myself away…changed more than a bit, to a more pedestrian search for Dr. David Bruce’s winery and some colossal chardonnays.

I have been mesmerized by big water ever since. Key West, Clearwater, Biloxi, New Orleans, Savannah, Charleston, and the Outer Banks. Waves and tides, sunsets and sunrises, lakes, bays, rivers, marshes, herons, dolphins, pelicans…

Pelicans…

…ah yes-s-s-s, pelicans…

…back to 1984.

It had already been a long, full day and we still had a ways to go…but that was alright. By this time, I was pretty warm and salty myself, and still fairly sunny.

The Outer Banks are big water writ even bigger water. These fragile strips of sand are far enough out to sea that to the east you can’t see Africa though you’re told it’s there, and to the west you can’t see the mainland though you’re told…

Sunrise over the water inspiring your day.

Sunset over the water evaluating your day.

Promising to do better tomorrow…or perhaps, do nothing at all.

This day, the Queasy Rider and I had been covering ground all day.

We had left the third member of our expedition, P-Tom, back at the beach house, nursing his badly sunburned feet. P-Tom had camped out the previous afternoon on the deck of his uncle’s beach house, in the shade, with 800+ pages of light reading about Confederate naval fortifications. As sure as Martello walls must crumble before the onslaught of the modern cannonballs of 1861, it was just as inevitable that P-Tom’s page-turner was no match for the insidious onslaught of the warm ocean sun.

He fell asleep.

The shade moved, as fickle shade will.

His beach-appropriate bare feet were exposed.

He snored.

His feet simmered.

We’ll turn that inevitable page for him.

Queaser and I were sympathetic, but still ambulatory. Heartless and undeterred, we beat our un-fried feet down the road to adventure.

We checked out the site of the Chicamacomico Races. This is just fun to say out loud, and it was where the Blues and the Grays in the jolly 1860’s spent a jolly day chasing each other up and down a sandy stretch of beach that meant little to either side, to no discernible improvement to the strategic chances of either side. I forget who chased who first, but both factions got their turn to chase. It was like a re-enaction of something that had not yet been enacted. I dunno. It plumb evaded me. Maybe there was yelling and whooping and beer involved. Maybe it ended in a real nice clambake.

We moved on to see the lighthouse at Hatteras. This is the lighthouse that had been moved back from the encroaching sea. It was an impressive feat, but not speedy, and we had a ferry to catch. We were on our way to Ocracoke Island.

Ocracoke was pleasant and small—humps of sand, clumps of sea oats, and a squat lighthouse that was moving nowhere.  We had pretty well “done” the isle in about 20 minutes, but we had time to kill before the return ferry. We treated ourselves to a dark little restaurant and some dubious-looking, but tasty chowder.

Now we were returning on the ferry along the fringe of the Pamlico Sound to Hatteras. We were leaning on the rail looking toward the mainland we were assured by the maps was out there somewhere.

A line of ten or twelve pelicans flew sinuously past on a course parallel to our craft…above the horizon…then below the horizon…above again…then below again……repeatedly……………..sewing the sea to the sky.

I admire pelicans.

They look so ungainly on land and so commandingly graceful when they fly.

Sewing the sea to the sky, a beautiful unconscious act of nature, oblivious to and unconcerned with the fact that their stitches will never hold.

I have many friends who are stage actors and directors. They are pelicans. They create people and situations that stun and move real people. They sew the sea to the sky for the run of a show. Their stitches never hold. The show closes and the moment disappears except in the minds and hearts of those they stunned and moved…and later of course in their stories shared and expanded with other pelicans over omelets at Josie’s breakfast oasis.

These thespian pelicans are oblivious and unconcerned. They have new lines to learn. They have new, un-permanent stitches to sew.

They have new sowing to do, and new lies to tell.

I admire pelicans.